Date
For lunch today, I went out to nourish my spirit.
It had been raining the last couple of days, a rare treat in Reno. The sky was still overcast but it stopped raining so I decided to go out for a walk. I found a path around a creek and decided to follow it. The earth was wet and the air was fresh and crisp. Even in the dead of winter, there were ducks swimming happily in the frigid creek water. I could hear birds chirping somewhere but I couldn’t see them. There was not another soul in sight. I was alone but not lonely. God was walking with me.
The past month have been spent in a frenzied pace and my heart was beset with worries. The recession has thrown me into a paralyzing fear for what could become.
What could become of us if we lost our jobs?
Will we still be able to pay our bills?
How can I find a job when millions have lost theirs before me?
What would become of us if we lose our house?
This fear was aggravated with nagging feelings of inadequacy at my job.
What if people decide I’m not good enough?
What if I show up for work one day and my boss tells me it’s my last?
As I followed the path, I remembered a line that my sister posted on our Yahoo groups. Do not fret. God is in charge. That’s when I realized I’ve been busy thinking that I needed to do something, anything, to secure tomorrow. But tomorrow is not in my hands. The recession and the threat of harder days ahead are real. But these are bigger than I am. There are things I cannot control. Worrying will not help me.
I returned to work that afternoon with a lighter heart. I’m glad I went to that lunch date with God.
